AND...i'm off!

haha in about 9 hours i will be on a PLANE for the first time and off to Louisiana! AH. a new adventure. I'll visit my aunt there, then we're going to Arkansas for Thanksgiving with her fam, then OFF an a cruise (going to the places on the map BUT not taking off from there. taking off from New Orleans!) for the both of us!! I'm grateful for this oppurtunity. Its going to be a blast forsure and i'll be taking LOADS of pictures. See ya in 2 weeks!

Until Then. Later! <3

Man!!

I can't believe how much I let this slide /: It makes me sad. I want to post more! BUT i've been so busy. Getting ready for my trip and all. SO. for now, i will post this poem i wrote the other night.



No Hope.

"I feel so lost,
in this sea of emotion.
I hold onto the mast,
on this ship in the ocean.

The compass is gone,
there is no hope of returning.
As I tighten my grip and hold on.
There is only yearning.

I yearn for some help,
I just need to be heard.
But as I yell, no words can escape.
These tears that i've cried, have not helped, only allowed me to yelp.
hardly a cry for help out,
but my voice has been buried,
in this world full of doubt.

The waves are crashing against me,
The anchor holding my ship is breaking,
and all i can see,
is the darkness surrounding.

Where is that help, i so desperately need?
that gentle hand to reach out and grab me,
to bring me to shore,
and listen as I cried,
To tell me "no more".

"For it will be alright,
can you not see the light?
Why, there it is at the end of tunnel
and with hope, my friend,
we will get though this hell"

Endure it WELL.

“Patience is not passive resignation, nor is it failing to act because of our fears. Patience means active waiting and enduring. It means staying with something and doing all that we can—working, hoping, and exercising faith; bearing hardship with fortitude, even when the desires of our hearts are delayed. Patience is not simply enduring; it is enduring well!”
Dieter F. Uchtdorf, “Continue in Patience,” Ensign, May 2010, 57

SO many things have happened since i last blogged, its really quite unbelievable. Well i found that quote and i really enjoyed it. I mean, it makes sense! So in my next post i will elaborate on whats happened in the last few weeks and how i've learned that i need to not just passively endure things, but endure them well and learn from them.


And to add something personal to this slightly vague post, today was my brother's birthday, i sure hope he had a great one<3

Until then; Goodnight.

Answers.

SO. i really wanted to blog about SOMETHING. anything really haha but i am so tired i think i'd start rambling. anyways, here i go :D haha

Well i really like that quote from Charlie Brown hahaha yes, a cartoon character. Hey! he's pretty wise for a "kid". anywho, how nice would that be if the answers were in the back of the book like remember in middle school math?? haha odd number answers were ALWAYS in the back. Great :) Well in life they're just not. There is no easy way out to getting that answer you know? I have been racking my brain trying to figure out if i should go to BYU-Idaho or not and to be honest, i am STILL not 100% positive thats where i want to be. My point is although the answers aren't in the "back of the book" we have our Savior Jesus Christ and our Heavenly Father who KNOW us. I know like if i pray even HARDER than i have been that i'll get an answer to that question and all my other ones. i promise you i have so much more. haha

Before i end or whatever, i had such a COOL experience at youth conference. Well i always feel the spirit so much more outside for some reason so i really took that opportunity to pray for some answers. So i prayed and then read my scriptures. I just heard a verse in my head and i got the chills. I opened to Helaman 3:35:
"Nevertheless they did fast and pray oft, and did wax stronger and stronger in their humility, and firmer and firmer in the faith of Christ, unto the filling their souls with joy and consolation, yea, even to the purifying and the sanctification of their hearts, which sanctification cometh because of their yielding their hearts unto God."
I really believe if i follow this i can have that joy of knowing and my faith will grow from it. So this was the spirit showing me what i need to do even more of. and i have.

Well Goodnight<3

Blogging...could be fun(:

I'm sitting here literally smiling as i type. haha
I love writing in my journal and all that stuff so this could be fun. I was reading Gina's blog when i just got the feeling that i should start one. You don't ignore feelings like that...haha even if its just about a blog :D

Anyways, this is the start of something cool! at least, i think so. i have SO many thoughts running through my mind; this may be a perfect way to get them out.

later(: