tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-42996394227378566752024-02-18T21:08:31.168-08:00My Journey...Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.comBlogger125125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-63051786532569814712012-08-20T11:59:00.000-07:002012-08-20T12:00:31.354-07:001 2 3.SO, this post will be about 3 things. I am clearly stating them so I don't get off topic. haha I do that sometimes.<br />
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1. Wes Hunter.</div>
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1. Wes. Such an amazing man. His funeral was recently and it was incredible to see everyone who came for him and his family. He was such a loved man and there are hardly enough words to describe him in a way that he deserves. He was kind to all who knew him and those he hardly knew. He was a friend to all, a missionary, a loving father and husband, and an inspiration. When I was pretty lost after graduating high school he was one man, the only person really, who didn't belittle me or pressure or bug me about ANYthing, he just said "come to my class"...and I did. When I wasn't going to other wards, I went to his class 2nd hour. He was such a great teacher. It was all stuff I pretty much knew but to hear it from a different point of view was great. Finally, I am so thankful for the impact he made on my truly wonderful boyfriend. He taught Scott more than I think anyone will ever be able to teach him. He helped him, guided him, built him up, and was another Dad to him. I will always have a special place in my heart for Wes Hunter and the ways he helped us in our times of need. <br />
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2. Advice. I hardly as for advice but I'm always here to give it. Its just how I am but today, I'm asking. If anyone reads this, advice is much appreciated. I've known something about another person for quite some time. Its not some random person, its a person close to me and its not something that's small, its a big issue. I've recently learned that its gotten worse and it seems that whenever this person is around, they're addicted to like their phone that has access and whatnot. I don't know if that makes sense but I don't want to give it all away. Anyways, its something that can make a big difference if brought to the surface I think and not in a good way. SO, saying that, I do not know what to do. I do not know who to go to or even what to say when I get to someone. So...advice?<br />
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3. Montana! I always have to leave this on a good note. (: WELL! More exciting news, Scott and I are going to Montana! I'm so thrilled to meet all of his family (I hope they like me!), to see where he grew up, and see why he loves it there so much. We're going in October so its just a little bit away. We will be traveling to Utah first with Robert, drop him off, and then head on up the rest of the way! We will also have Scott's dog Jake...that will be an adventure. haha I'm giving up my place in the front seat already. We'll stay up there for a couple of weeks to meet everyone, go hunt (mainly Scott will go hunt. haha), and lots of other stuff. haha I've never been so excited for a road trip (besides for General Conference)! So that's all for that. (:<br />
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With all that going on and everything else in my life, I always find myself going back to this quote: </div>
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Things will work out." - Gordon B. Hinckley."</div>
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Sounds good to me Gordon B. Hinckley...sounds good to me. </div>
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Until Then. ♥</div>
Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-75111062116589749882012-08-05T13:03:00.000-07:002012-08-05T13:05:45.529-07:00Summer.<div style="text-align: center;">
So much has happened and I hardly have time to really get on here and blog anymore. </div>
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Well here is a list of whats gone on in the last, lets say, 2 months. </div>
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I got my wisdom teeth out.</div>
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Spent 4th of July in Idyllwild with family.</div>
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Celebrated 6 months with Scott (even though we were apart).</div>
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Went to Girls Camp as a MAC again! </div>
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Lost a good man in the ward.</div>
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Got a letter from Elder TaylorShumway!! (and one everyday at camp from Scott!)</div>
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Zack is now 12. :D</div>
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Gone to the beach only a couple of times.</div>
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Spent the last 2 months mainly with Tay.</div>
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Thought about a gym membership...I need it.</div>
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Got trained in Guest Services at Target so I now work over there and cashier.</div>
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Scott's papers are almost being submitted...</div>
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Taylee lost her little hamster, Calvin.</div>
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She got a new one that she named Hobbes...but I don't like him as much. haha</div>
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Had a lot of wars with ants. -___-</div>
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Went to a wedding of a good friend and looking foward to the next few.</div>
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Kissed Scott under fireworks. ♥</div>
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Had no car all summer...</div>
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Attempted to learn stick shift...sucked. haha<br />
Scott moved into the Johnsons and its the best.<br />
Spent a night with their WHOLE family, it was great.<br />
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So thats most of what I can remember doing off the top of my head. Its just been crazy lately with work and everything. I need to get grounded again and begin reading my scripture, once again, every night or morning. Life is too short. Its important to remember what is REALLY necessary. Love everyone, show you care, pray for others, be a shoulder to someone who needs someone to lean on, and so on. Life is beautiful, it really is, so let''s try our best to keep it that way.</div>
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Until Then.</div>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-67042011563589798472012-06-06T00:39:00.000-07:002012-06-06T00:39:03.522-07:00Graduation.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">SO! My little brother Robert is a high school graduate. Its so weird because he is just my little bro, my bubba, and now here he is a man. I can't even begin to explain how proud I am of him but I am going to try. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">He has done so much to get good grades, be an exceptional student, an awesome friend, an annoying but loving brother and son. I couldn't be happier to be his sister. He tries so hard at everything he does that I believe he can accomplish everything. <span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; line-height: 19px;"> </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; line-height: 19px;">I know that in his eyes I am not always a nice person to but I want him to know that I try so hard everyday. He isn't ‘just my little bro’, I try to make HIM proud, as proud as he has made me. I just want him to be happy with whatever he does. I’m proud of him, for who he is and who he will become. </span>When he came out to just walk down the track to his seat I had tears in my eyes and such a proud smile on my face. Then when his name was called, I sure didn't hold back. He is such a great brother and I couldn't ask for more.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Well, Robert will be going on his mission now and that is so exciting. I can't wait to send him letters and packages. It will just be more time to grow closer to him and then soon enough I will get to share many of the same experiences that he will go through. Anywho, congrats Bubba! hahaha I love you and I always will!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Until Then. </span>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-38447955731274322622012-05-01T22:57:00.000-07:002012-05-01T23:01:42.066-07:00Great.Today was SO good. So last night I made up my mind that I wanted a day to sleep in and so I gave Mom (with plenty of warning) her job back. Her job that she made mine for some time now. So, I put a sign on my door that said "Don't wake me up. Mom is taking you to school today. Thanks." hahaha It worked! I got to sleep in and then woke up around 9 feeling all sorts of refreshed. I called Scott shortly after to say good morning but Dylan answered. haha He was trying really hard to sound like Scott but I knew it was him. I'm gonna miss that kid! Anyways, so then I talked to Scott and my day instantly got a million times better all before noon.<br />
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So then we actually got to IM each other for a bit after he had finished breakfast. I uploaded pictures, started my letter to Ryan, went on Tumblr, finished my show, ran around the house, and had chocolate chip toaster waffles! Again, all before noon. (: haha It was a very productive morning.<br />
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I picked the kids up from school around 3. After that, I took Zack to get some new shoes, checked out the Best Buy that is closing, went to Target, had an ICEE (that we made a total mess of) with a pretzel, and had a great time. haha It really was fun! I always have a good time talking and hanging out with him. Even though half the time I have NO idea what we are talking about. haha<br />
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We got home around 5ish and got ready for institute. Taylee went with me tonight so that was cool. The ride to institute was a blast. I finally get to be that cool sister that drives. haha We get to sing as loud as we want and just have a great time. Institute was good as usual, just missing the best teacher in the world AND it was so weird not to be sitting next to Scott, who would be next to Dylan, who would be next to Yuko...that will take some getting used to. After that, we went to Nubi! SO delicious. Anyways. On the way there we were dancing to who knows what in the car and I look over to see a car full of my friends waving to me. hahahahaha OH boy, I'm just glad I don't get easily embarrassed anymore. It was just plain fun. (: We got home and put in Pocahontas but Tay fell asleep and I paused it to write this...and talk to Scott. haha<br />
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This was definitely a day that needed to be noted. It was just an all around fun day with my siblings. We had a lot of laughs, good fun, and a nice time.I love them so much. I also love Scott SO much and am pretty excited to see him again on Thursday...I don't know how we are going to do 2 whole years when we've only been apart for 5 days and it feels like foreverrrrrr. haha BUT! The Lord is on our side and I know we'll be just fine. (:<br />
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Until Then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-4844454600396821132012-04-28T14:00:00.003-07:002012-04-28T23:50:42.033-07:00Days.So, I am just going to take this post day by day since its been a while.<br />
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Well. I got to go to Utah with my family and it was so worth taking off work without pay for a week. (: I couldn't imagine having to miss that. I've missed them so much! My Grandparents turned 80 and so that was a blessing to go to a party for them. I got to see just about everyone in my family, even those I hadn't seen in a while. It was nice. ALSO! Scott got to meet my family. He was up there with Dylan and Yuko. OH my goodness. To see my whole family accept him was so amazing. They absolutely love him. He just fits in so nicely. We also celebrated 2 months together up there.<br />
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Lets see, I got a $.07 raise. :D haha Its all about the little things. I still am dealing with car accident stuff. Its been a hassle and stressful but I guess I am meant to learn something from it. On a better note, I am going to be a MAC this year again!! I am so excited. Its going to be amazing to be up there again and shaping these girls into wonderful young women.<br />
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SO in even bigger news. Scott said he loved me on Monday, April 23rd. ♥ We seriously had both been kinda tip toeing around the words "I love you" for...a while. haha BUT finally, he said he need to read me something. So as we sat there laying together he read me this beautiful poem and the last line said "I'm in love with you". Ahhhh, all I could do was smile and yeah, just smile. I was so happy. So, I found a pen but it was dead so he got me a marker. I got the marker and wrote "♥ I love you too." on his chest. (: It was the cutest darn thing. Now I just want to tell him all the time why I love him and how much.He kissed me in the rain on the 25th and the next day we celebrated 3 months together. We saw "The Lucky One" and just had a really nice day together. I honestly can't imagine being happier. He has also started his mission papers and I already know this is going to be hard. Like, I thought saying bye to my best friends was hard...well, this is going to be a whole different kind of hard. However, I can't even begin to describe how PROUD I am of him and this decision. I'm in love with an incredible man. I am. (:<br />
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More news, my friend Brian is engaged. I seriously have like 6 weddings that I could be going to this year. Its insane! Something is in the air, I believe it. haha<br />
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Oh! Easter, was really good. Spent the day with family and Scott of course. I had the day off and it was such a blessing to have that day off and a Sunday off in general! We did baskets (even Scott, he had never had one before!), had a wonderful time at church, and so on. It was a great day.<br />
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Yep, so thats life right now. Its tough at times but when I see Scott or friends and family I just remember why I love life so much and see the bigger picture. Its a big world out there and I am a part of it now so I'm just living day by day.<br />
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<br />Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-9711310093407528182012-03-23T10:30:00.001-07:002012-03-23T10:33:34.105-07:00Temples.Going to the temple is truly a blessing and definitely strengthens my testimony with each visit. Yesterday the most I got out of it was this. Be thankful for those who are by your side, who pick you up when you are down, and who would never let go of you even for a second. <br />
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I feel like I have been going through a good amount of hardships but I am so thankful to have people who care and love me by my side. I was thinking about people who can only see their side of situations. I had an incident this morning with that problem and it just frustrates me to no end. Especially with someone close who is supposed to be a support, who is supposed to listen to me, and I believe I'm done "supposing" those things because they obviously are not a priority to them. I just believe it should be in our best interest to learn to have more empathy, to feel more sympathetic, and to be more open. Being close minded never got anyone anywhere, really. <br />
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I was thinking about Joseph Smith and how much he was persecuted by close minded individuals, how the Saints had to leave their homes because of that, how to get some peace and be where they needed to be they would do anything for. I may not be going through what they had to but that doesn't make my trials nothings. They are still trials and they're mine. Mine to learn and grow from. I want to be like them through it all and going to the temple just reminds me of all that. It reminds me that I need to stay strong as they were. I mean, they walked miles and miles to not even get to a temple. They walked miles and miles so they could BUILD a temple. So that they could feel that joy, peace, and love. I want to make it a goal to just go to the temple more often. Even to just to sit there...I love feeling that peace that just radiates from that sacred building. Well, when I get back from Utah, that is one of my first plans. It really is. <br />
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A few things, big things, have happened since I last wrote. A lot of people and myself had to say goodbye to an incredible woman, Debbie. She was seriously an angel. Like, if I had to describe the most amazing woman it would've been her. She was so full of strength and love that even through her trials she was so full of light. I remember her in Young Women's and then before that in Achievement Days. Those were some of my best memories. So she is missed by many but we all know she isn't suffering anymore and is so happy. (: <br />
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ALSO! I got a letter from my best friend!! OH my goodness, it was seriously like one of the best days ever. FORreal. So Elder Ryan Johansen is doing great and he is more spiritual than ever. He is just enjoying his mission and all it comes with. It was so great to finally hear back from him so I am working on my letter right now as well. I also had a moment I guess. haha He said in his letter "stay beautiful" and it was like "awwwwwwww" my best friend said I'm beautiful. haha It was the greatest and I can't wait to get mine out and his in return. <br />
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Now, for the main even, Lia is home!!! Ah! I got to see her last night and it was like no time had past. We were back to laughing and talking like she had never left. Oh, its so good to finally say hello to someone again instead of goodbye like I have been. It is so great to have one of my best friends in the whole world back. I love it! (: She has made me so proud and I am so thankful for her example to me. <br />
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Well, Scott and I are doing just greattttt. He is a prefect gentleman still and I've fallen so hard for him. I even got up to bear my testimony because I promised him I would and I have a testimony but getting up to share it is quite scary. BUT! I knew he was right there and my fear went away allowing the spirit to enter and fill me with the right words and a clear mind. The Lord truly knows who we need in our lives and when. ♥<br />
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Lets see. Oh yes, this year I have been called to be a MAC again at Girl's Camp!! I'm so excited. It really is such a blessing to have that opportunity to help girls, grow spiritually, and love every minute of it. I can't even wait. (: <br />
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Now, a serious thing that I will only touch on is the car accident I got in back in December. She is saying its my fault and claiming a lot. So, we're working on it. I can only think about how <span class="messageBody" data-ft="{"type":3}">strength is smiling through the struggles and, if you learned anything, thanking the Lord for them after. So through this I may feel as I have lost my voice or my opinion or I may be confused but I know the Lord has control of the situation and it will all work out. It will. </span><br />
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<span class="messageBody" data-ft="{"type":3}">Work is also going just fine. I will be trained to be a team trainer soon for when we hire new people for summer and trained for guest services. That one should be interesting. haha Oh well, I say, bring it on! I'm just wanting to focus on the positive in life and the things I can control versus what the Lord is in control of. This year has already been a big one and it has just begun. (: </span><br />
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<span class="messageBody" data-ft="{"type":3}">Until then.</span>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-16998588991290958692012-02-15T09:10:00.000-08:002012-02-15T09:10:46.620-08:00Valentine's.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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OH my goodness. Valentine's day was so fun. I spent most of the day just doing things around the house. Did all my laundry, cleaned the kitchen, snacked on Nutella, and got ready for the night because I had a date. (: <br />
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So the other night I had to sign (Yuko too) a "contract" for this Valentine's Day date. Well, it had me a little worried to be honest. haha But it was funniest and cutest thing. Scott picked me up close to 5 and we headed over to Dylan's to meet up with them. Once we were all there, we took off...Yuko and I were still clueless. WELL. We ended up at a Salvation Army in Perris (or Riverside...I didn't know where we were. haha) This is when they told us we'd be picking outfits for them and they would be doing the same for us...we would then continue to put each other's picks on and wear them for the night. Needless to say, Yuko and I were not thrilled...in any way. haha We didn't know what to choose because there wasn't a huge selection for guys and they were all boring. We just went with getting them vests (and soon regretted that we only got them those). Scott got me this disgusting green tank top turtle neck, with an old patterned jacket, a camo hat (so gross), and what appeared to be a shiny-pink-race-car-looking-jacket. That pink thing turned out to be like a Halloween costume that I had to put my legs through and put on. SO UGLY. hahaha It was awful! I won't lie, I was a little peeved. haha I mean it was a hilarious idea and way interesting...but I worked hard on picking the right outfit out for the night. haha Then Yuko had this little girl looking striped t-shirt, an old lady hat, and this floral jacket with HUGE sleeves. haha It was just not good. <br />
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We then proceeded to go to dinner...looking like we did. We went to this little hole in the wall restaurant for some 'italian' food. It was really good! I enjoyed it. (: After that we ended up at Fiesta Village for some lazer tag. (Mind you, we still look ridiculous and yes, we got a lot of weird looks.) Scott and I KILLED it. haha We so won that with a score of 4,025. :D It was pretty fun. Now one of the best parts happened after that...Dylan said we could change back for the next event. SO. Exciting. You may ask why we just refused to wear those outfits. Well you see, we were under that "contract". haha It was a pretty legit thing. Anyways. We changed in the car on the way to our next event.<br />
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The next event was seeing..."The Vow"! OH my, I was excited. (and rightfully so, the movie was AMAZING!!) We got there a little early so Scott and I went and took pictures in the photo booth there, that was funny. haha Scott was so confused as to where to look and whatnot, it was so cute. haha We then went to walk around, get our tickets, and go in the theater. We were still too early to go sit so me and Scott went and played a hunting game (where you shoot dinos...ahaha). THEN, Scott plays a claw game which I swear don't work, until now, because he won an i-pod shuffle. Yep. haha We went back to the line to talk and then finally it was time to go in. Scott got me some Hot Tamales, the sure way to my heart. haha We watched the movie which like I said before was amazing. I loved it. (: Then went back home. Said goodnight to Dylan and Yuko then went off to have some time together. It was such a great day/night. That's forsure. <br />
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It may have started out rocky with the whole outfit thing BUT it was an all around good time. I won't soon forget it, nor would I want to. I have the greatest boyfriend...I really do.<br />
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Until Then. <br />
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p.s. We have plans for today too! :DJessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-79246567401605946462012-02-10T21:15:00.000-08:002012-02-10T21:15:02.879-08:00Mission.I feel like my last post was just way intense and I haven't really been able to gather my thoughts well enough for another one. Life is just a crazy mess sometimes! <br />
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When trials come, I find the best thing to do for me is write, pray, and read my scriptures. Trials come and go but our Savior is always with us, never leaving us to take them on our own. I'm so thankful to know that. <br />
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So, the point of this post is to say that I will most likely be going on a mission. The other day I realized that I could technically put my papers in around May/June. CRAZY. Also, Scott can put in his papers soon and he plans to AND Robert will also be doing his. Its all hitting so close that I could be out on a mission, my best friend, my boyfriend, and my brother all at the same time. How cool is that? Very. haha It just makes me think that maybe I am really meant to go on one because school plans have been crumbling since I graduated and maybe I am not meant to do school until after a mission. I have no idea. My PB blessing does say something like what I am meant to do (career wise) will be made known to me in that time. SO. As of now, I am seriously considering going after my childhood goal of going on a mission. <br />
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Life is full of decisions, paths, trials, good times, and bad times. Its up to us to make choices, find our way, cherish the good times, and learn from the bad ones. Its important to know that through Him all things are possible and life, no matter how crazy it may be, is great.<br />
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Until Then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-7666389548137777662012-02-06T02:05:00.000-08:002012-02-07T12:40:49.500-08:00Pain.I have work at 8:15 in the morning and I cannot sleep...even if I tried. My thoughts are so loud I feel like I should be screaming. My heart is so heavy I feel like I'm drowning. My tears are flowing so freely...I feel like this isn't real. <br />
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Some things in life are just plain terrible. Ugly. Horrible and plainly put...disgusting. I have no words left in me to describe how betrayed I feel from someone who is supposed to be one of the most important people in my life. I've lost all respect, I've lost the close connection we started re-building, I've given up on looking up to this person in any way, and I'm just angry and embarrassed. For the other person involved...I'm disgusted. I don't understand how this can be going on without a thought as to the other people in your lives would feel if this was to blow up. I want to tell you both to stay the hell away from eachother. If only I could. <br />
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I can't breathe because now I am not the only one to know about this. You both have subjected someone so dear to me...to your disgusting mess. I hate seeing her hurt, seeing her cry kills me, and seeing her trying to figure out how SHE could "fix" this...makes me sick. Its not her place to even know about this, let alone try to fix it. I've cried countless times over this and I fell apart when I saw that now it cause her to cry as I have.<br />
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I feel like I've said too much without even saying much at all. All I want to do is be on my knees praying until this gets worked out. Until this stops. Until these people learn. Until these people get talked to and reprimanded for what they're doing. I need an answer...I feel like I need to do something else besides just put up a front and act like I don't know whats going on.<br />
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Now, to Scott, you may never read this but I need to publicly say how thankful I am for YOU. I hate crying especially in front of people. But you came over and got me talking about everything. You got me smiling, you cared for me, and you let me just break down and cry on your shoulder. That means the world to me...I hope you really know that. I can't imagine my life without you by my side. I'm not afraid of what may come as long as you stand beside me. Thank you, with every part of my heart I say thank you. You're a blessing and I'm the luckiest girl in the world to have a boyfriend like you.<br />
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Until Then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-68160849614269607272012-01-30T02:28:00.000-08:002012-02-15T09:13:24.436-08:00Boyfriend.Man. That is going to take me a little bit to get used to saying. Aww, let me just say how happy I am. The Lord truly knows who He should put in each of our lives and I am thankful for that.<br />
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We had our first kiss on the 21st and at that moment I completely knew...he was the guy for me.<br />
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So on the 26th, I became happily taken away by the greatest guy in the world, Scott. He is truly the best. We were just cuddling and enjoying a night in when he said he had something to say and knew how to say it now. He said the sweetest things about trust, about us, about everything and I wasn't even scared when he was telling me it all. I just wanted him to keep going and get to the part where he asked me to be his girlfriend. haha It got to that part and now I'm happier than ever. Even now I am sitting here grinning like a fool. He just has me so extremely happy. He tells me how lucky he is but really, I am the lucky one. I love holding his hand whenever we're together, kissing him like its the last time I will, talking to him, goodnight messages, and everything else. <br />
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I was sick this morning and he brought me a smoothie after church. <br />
He visited me at work just to check on me (and to buy dogfood haha). <br />
AFTER I got off at 9:30 pm, he came over where we then watched "The Notebook" and had pancakes at midnight. <br />
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Tell me that isn't the perfect boyfriend...yep, you can't say it. haha Because it wouldn't be true, he is the best. <br />
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Life couldn't be better right now. I may not know what lies ahead of me but now I am not afraid of it. I'm not afraid to go for whatever I dream up because I have him by my side. I don't feel so alone through everything I am going through and whats better than that is I know he feels the same. Making him happy is the best thing I can do. His happiness makes me radiate joy and seriously its the greatest. <br />
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Until Then. <br />
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I've been juggling quiet a bit lately. So, I have been working pretty good hours lately. No more 8 hours per week. haha That was ridiculous. I've been kinda dating a friend, not completely serious yet but he makes me feel special. Its nice. (: Then church, hanging out with friends, FHE, and institute...no wonder my energy has been shot. Also. Brian is moving so yet another great friend of mine is going to be gone, as of today, and I still hate goodbyes. <br />
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Well, with that, I just feel really quiet lately. I feel like I can’t say enough, can’t say anything to help, or can’t say what I really want to say…so I’m not saying enough. That probably makes no sense but there really is no other way to explain it. I’m having to say goodbye and have said goodbye to some of my closest friends and it makes it hard when I need someone to talk to…to rant, to just let everything out. Times like these, I really miss my best friend. I miss the connections I have had with others. Well, now, I am at a loss for words. So. I will continue just being quiet for now. <br />
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Its been kinda hard not to withdrawal more than I have. I feel a little bit like I'm falling apart on the inside. Like, its just one thing after another and I need a break. A break from missing people, from going out...from reality. I kinda went "awol" last week and I'm thinking that's what I need to do again. <br />
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I just need to get back on the ground with both my feet planted firmly on it. <br />
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Until Then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-78786208867954623552012-01-07T02:31:00.000-08:002012-01-07T02:31:58.820-08:00Feeling.I've been staring at this blank page for some time. I feel like writing but everything I feel like writing about is just so scrambled. <br />
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I probably should be sleeping because I am exhausted but I just have so many thoughts. Thinking of past memories, of friends, my family, school, and of him. <br />
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Why is it so hard to let someone go? Why does it have to hurt so much when I don't even know what this is? Its nothing. I just don't understand why I can't look away even when he isn't looking my direction. Which then makes me not understand the stolen glances between eachother. I just...I can't be her. Thats probably the only thing getting in the way. I'm me. Maybe I am just not good enough to feel that touch again, to be held, and to just be with him. I'm. Not. Her. So once again, I need to move forward. I need to move past this. But how can I let go of this once again when I have held on for so long? Even when I was angry, hurt, and over it...I've come back and that must mean something. Feelings don't resurface for nothing. Or do they? <br />
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Whatever happens, if we ever are together or never make it to that, there will always be a place in my heart for him. That little piece of me will stay the same. The "history" and memories are still there. However, time moves forward and so shall I. So come what may.<br />
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Until Then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-72850769152263694852012-01-01T19:59:00.000-08:002012-01-01T20:00:43.034-08:002012.“In three words I can sum up what I know about life: It goes on.” <em>— Robert Frost. </em><br />
It. Goes. On. How amazing. Those three simple words hold so much wisdom. Its great knowing that after this year of trials, of heartache, of people coming and going, of happiness and triumph, and everything else...that is goes on. It goes on to be a new year full of hope and potential. <br />
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I hardly have the talent of Robert Frost to just simply sum things up and besides, 2011 was too big to just sum up in a few words. In 2011, I was everywhere. Literally. I grew closer to my best friends, they were my solid ground when I grew weary through the challenges. My best friends went on Missions. One returned and although he should be out there, I'm sure thankful to have him here. I learned to trust even more in Heavenly Father because thats all I could do last year. I grew closer to my family for they are truly the most constant people in my life and I love them dearly. I got rejected from a school I thought was my next move, I got a JOB at Target, I met some great new people, I saw other lives change, I went on a roadtrip with friends, I went to conference, I visited Utah on my own just to see my family, I went to the US Surf Open, I went to the beach in general a lot more than years before, I experienced loss once again with 3 of my dearest pets, I felt feelings deeper for another but also had to get over them over and over again...I got my license, I got into a car accident, and I turned 20. <br />
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I learned to live in the moment. I learned to appreciate letters so much more. I learned to get out of my comfort zone. I learned to trust my heart more. I learned even more to speak my mind. I learned to speak up and be honest with things that are going on. I learned, and this is big, that sometimes it is okay to cry...just a little bit. haha I learned that things in life aren't always going to go as planned...because last year was just one beautiful unplanned mess. Seriously. There are definitely two things I learned: Life is messy and Life begins at the end of your comfort zone. <br />
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So with that. Here is to 2012. Here is to loving more deeply, speaking up, to not fighting feelings anymore, to just going with it, to taking chances, to having more faith, and to being who you truly are each and every day. Here is to accepting that life doesn't always go as planned but being thankful for another day to figure it out. My only New Year's Resolution, so far, is just this: To figure life out. Basically, to continue just finding myself and my place in this world. Maybe this year will bring me love, maybe it will bring more tears, more joy, or new people but I know this. I am not alone in this journey and I am not only enduring but ENJOYing the ride we all call life. <br />
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Until Then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-23494423634250620462011-12-29T12:12:00.000-08:002011-12-29T23:24:02.615-08:00Huge.This week has just been, to say the least, huge. We'll start with the 25th, Christmas! <br />
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It was a great Christmas. We filled each other's stockings this year and that was beyond fun. We watched Mr. Krueger's Christmas, Joy to the World, The Nativity, and so on. It was just a simple and nice Christmas as a family. I loved every minute of Sacrament meeting and the day was just so wonderful. It was definitely the best.<br />
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Then on to the 26th. I worked my first 8 hour shift. That was a LONG day. haha But I loved it, it was busy and fast paced. I definitely like my job and felt so thankful to have the opportunity to work the season. Then, like I talked about before, I found out that I was permanent! So I love my job even more. haha <br />
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Now the 27th was a HUGE day. I am house sitting so I've been over night there since Christmas. Well I woke up early to go get my hair done with my Mom. She was already going over there so I was going to run home, get my hair pictures haha, and meet her over there. So after I got ready, fed the dog, and whatnot I got ready to head out. They said I could use their car while they were gone so I was going to just use it to go meet with my Mom. So I started home and I didn't get too far before I seriously had the scariest moment of my life. I was going straight and then I just then I saw a car, just barely, coming at me to my right and then it was like the loudest silence before the huge crash. I got hit with the air bag, the seat belt saved my life (I swear by it.), and it was the biggest crashing noises all around me. I had NO idea what to do once that air bag hit me. I was just scared, I was sobbing, literally sobbing and I never do that, and I was shaking SO hard. I was sitting there yelling, 'Oh my gosh' over and over again. A minute later, a cop was opening my door to get me out and out of the intersection. <br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIBdLd9kx9OEX_oQnCk-SQ_l7xA-aAzK1omzKkcnvTUCTLgw2yzpjjD05FaiIKhnGa0nrUNGluPB56GdsWQi41R4d1XxARAAJu6GswnzZJWMhgEnV4LYHkzKMwo_6dMuRby8EP0-eqjFs/s1600/DSC00190.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIBdLd9kx9OEX_oQnCk-SQ_l7xA-aAzK1omzKkcnvTUCTLgw2yzpjjD05FaiIKhnGa0nrUNGluPB56GdsWQi41R4d1XxARAAJu6GswnzZJWMhgEnV4LYHkzKMwo_6dMuRby8EP0-eqjFs/s320/DSC00190.JPG" width="240" /></a>I pretty much made it to the sidewalk and collapsed in shock. I was saying, 'its not my car', 'I don't know what to do' and so on. Then a lady that lived on the corner came and just held me. She called my Dad for me and everything. She was like my guardian angel right in that moment. She held me together and when my Dad got there I was just so happy to see him. I did go to the hospital because I got a huge burn thing from the seat belt/airbag, my chest was just killing me, bruises on my hips, my nose hurt, my lip was slightly swollen, and my knee was also hurting. <br />
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Well, after everything is said and done, the family wasn't even mad I basically totaled their car. I was safe and I haven't been very sore...I even went in to work today (the 29th). I was a little light headed at work from lifting but I was blessed to get a couple of breaks. I just have no words to explain what went through my mind at that moment when I got hit, I don't have enough words to say how thankful I am, I just...am thankful to be here and be so blessed. I just have been keeping a sincere prayer in my heart about everything. <br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhs-LDRNOXExPQ8RLi40vUY0qISIsxXCVHtO-wv-JZneERg8Jd2SY6SiZ1t4wVwQQTewTWmDf4W5HFKEJFrcoKdE5lCbw0tDWsEs8mUuONTcNxCKZLS_pWlqoY_eJltcsk5YlPv927Uobk/s1600/DSC00171.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhs-LDRNOXExPQ8RLi40vUY0qISIsxXCVHtO-wv-JZneERg8Jd2SY6SiZ1t4wVwQQTewTWmDf4W5HFKEJFrcoKdE5lCbw0tDWsEs8mUuONTcNxCKZLS_pWlqoY_eJltcsk5YlPv927Uobk/s320/DSC00171.JPG" width="240" /></a>So then, yesterday the 28th, was my birthday. I am now 20, OFFICIALLY an adult. Let me tell you...It feels good. I actually can feel a difference. Maybe its just because I have been through so much as a 19 year old that I feel like I have grown more in the past year than I ever have before. This is huge to me. It really is. I had a great day with my family. We went shopping, went out to dinner, and then came home to watch 'Cowboys and Aliens' while eating cake. I blew out 20 candles yesterday and I couldn't be more excited to start a new chapter in my life. Here is to being 20. Here is to everything. Here is to not taking one moment for granted. He has blessed me in this past year with so much strength and I made it. I couldn't feel happier about that than I feel now. <br />
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Until then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-81770513193947394082011-12-26T23:51:00.000-08:002011-12-26T23:51:32.311-08:00Official.I had another day where I just felt truly thankful and happy. I was working a long shift today and was told that one of the leaders wanted to see me. So, I finished with the guest and then went to go see what was going on. <br />
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Prayers were answered, I am officially a permanent Target employee!! (: I am so beyond excited. It may not be the "best" job but I think its a great job for me. I love it! I love that Target hired me and gave me that oppotunity to prove myself to be a good worker. I am thankful that I have a steady job now. Its a wonderful feeling knowing that I will be saving money for school and for all the things I need. I just feel....responsible and a little more independant. <br />
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So, thank you Target. haha This was like an amazing Christmas/Birthday presesnt! :D By the way, I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas. This is truly the most wonderful time of the year. <br />
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Until Then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-84098913438763735822011-12-23T23:45:00.001-08:002011-12-23T23:54:43.212-08:00Chances.I love when that moment comes where its not worth it to make things up anymore or hide anything or deny it. I love heart to heart talks. I love when the only thing you care about is being honest and its now or never. <br />
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In life, we are sometimes blessed with second chances. A second chance to mend a friendship, say what our heart so longed to say before, be a better person, and so on. These second chances don't come easy or often though...thats why they are a blessing and when they come, you better be honest. Be honest with yourself and the others involved. <br />
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Life is about taking risks. Its about finding yourself and finding another to complete you. Its about being honest, especially to those that mean the most to you. Its all about the little things. Its all about being willing to take a chance when you've got it. <br />
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So here is to taking chances, taking risk, and living. Live everyday the best you can. Live with your whole heart, a sound mind, and a strong soul. Live to enjoy the journey as you endure to the end. <br />
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Until Then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-48371478494709352302011-12-21T01:08:00.000-08:002011-12-21T01:08:17.746-08:00Again.So here we go again, with issues dealing with school. <br />
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Well. I just want to talk about my desire to go to a 4 year university. This has always been my dream...my goal. I am so sick of people saying to me "looks like you're just going to have to swallow your pride and go to RCC". First off, that is NOT the reason I don't want to go there. I have heard nothing but drama come out of that school. Takes too long to register, getting no important classes, being there longer than necessary, etc. I just have no desire to go there and it doesn't FEEL right. Now that I got that out, I feel like I can tell people that straight up when they tell me things like that. <br />
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I don't want to be defensive or bitter because these trials to just get INTO a school are somehow making me into a stronger person. I keep being disappointed but I'm learning thats life. When one door closes you gotta find the other one that opened. I appreciate advice but I do not appreciate being talked down to or told what to do...that only pushes me away. <br />
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On another note, I hope all the guys in my life know that I've got their backs. I am so thankful for their friendship more than any friendship with the ladies in my life. That may sound harsh, but I just connect so much better with them and love how they don't 'backstab' or just talk behind eachothers backs all the time. Its nice! haha I appreciate the fun loving, drama free attitude they all have and I think we could all use a little more of that in our lives. <br />
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Well this year is almost over. Its time to make new goals, look back on the year, and dream about a new fresh year. <br />
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Until Then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-21661022295275023232011-12-14T23:26:00.000-08:002011-12-15T01:14:19.710-08:00Kindness.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Being kind and caring is simple and are traits we should all strive to have. In our day-to-day lives we have so many opportunities to show kindness towards others and it is up to us to go the extra mile. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Today I took my best friend comfort in the form of his two favorite things, IBCs and Yorks. (: haha Something so simple but when someone knows they are being thought of and mean enough to someone to be cared for, it has the possibility to mean so much. So my message is simple, be kind. Be kind to your family, to your friends, to even strangers, to everyone. Being kind and caring can radiate simply from a smile. Like I said, it doesn't take much. It just takes a willing heart to take the time to be there for another, to care beyond what they show to the world, to be kind to those who walk among us.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">We are all here to be tested and tried. We all have bad days, we all have hard times, and we all feel the weight of the world on our shoulders some days. So lets help each other out. If someone is down, care enough to talk to them about what they may be going through. If someone has lost that spark in their eye, throw them a smile. If someone is going through a difficult time, be close to them so you can catch their tears and be that shoulder to lean on. There is so much that we can do for others and the best thing is that its just this: simple. Don't complicate it, just be kind and care. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Until Then.</span>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-43334440798894180422011-12-12T12:52:00.000-08:002011-12-12T13:04:30.086-08:00Up.<div style="text-align: center;">
"I don’t know where I’m at<br />
I’m standing at the back<br />
And I’m tired of waiting<br />
Waiting here in line, hoping that I’ll find what I’ve been chasing.<br />
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I shot for the sky<br />
I’m stuck on the ground<br />
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna fall down<br />
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?<br />
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down..."</div>
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I always say how perfect music is and how it just tells the story of each of our souls. It tells the world what our hearts are saying and everything we want to say. Music is life and I usually never go a day without it. <br />
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With that said, of course I have been listening to music on Pandora all morning. This song came on and I've heard it before BUT this time, it seemed to hit me really hard. It seems like every time I try to get out and chase my dreams, I fall back down and start to drown. Its been an up and down roller coaster with everything. <br />
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Well, even through all the struggles, I'm learning to still get back up and just shoot higher. Its hard to feel things like rejection, disappointment, pain, and heartache but unfortunately that's life. However hard those feelings are though, they show us how wonderful the feelings of pure joy, love, and happiness are. Those feelings are what we so desperately want to feel in this life, I know I always strive to be happy and make others feel the same. As much as I try, I can't stop the bad times from coming. All I can do when they come is to go with it, "roll with the punches"...go with the flow. <br />
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Life can be disappointing. When you get your hopes up and it doesn't go right. When that perfect guy finds someone who is not you. When you lose people who are dear to you. But you know what? That is when we grow the most. That is when we are becoming stronger individuals. THAT is when we are becoming thankful for all the happy times and good feelings. We learn to appreciate everything more when we've learned what its like to lose it all. <br />
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I'm writing this because I don't want to fall and drown. I want to continue to get back up when I fall. I want to keep getting stronger. I want to shoot for the stars and one day reach my dreams. I want to inspire another to never give up. Do not give up on people, on your hopes and dreams, and NEVER give up on yourself. We are all worth do much more than what this world tells us. We need to be driven. We need to be compassionate and help others along the way. We need to always get back UP when we have fallen...no matter how hard or trying that may be.<br />
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Until Then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-54232971599399236032011-12-07T21:30:00.001-08:002011-12-09T12:42:15.498-08:00Missing.Days like I've been having just make me miss my best friend even more. I miss the hold-me-tight-until-I-felt-completely-better hugs when I needed them after a hard day or sad news.<br />
I never thought missing someone could be so hard. I have missed people before, but this is somehow different. I never thought that AFTER the goodbye would be harder than the actual goodbye...and that was the hardest goodbye! There is only like one other person that I have ever missed like this too. I miss hanging out doing nothing but talking. I miss our beach trips, spa nights, and our top of the mountain nights. I miss just laughing at nothing and being complete spazzes. haha<br />
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Most of all, and the reason I miss my best friend a lot today, is because he would understand exactly how I am feeling and he is one of the only people that could make me open up and talk about whats going on. He would know what to say and what not to say. He would make me feel better. He might sugar coat the hard truth but thats what makes him different. He wouldn't just shoot down how i'm feeling. He would make sure I knew the truth but in such a caring way that just made sense to me. More importantly, he would just make me smile by the end of our conversation and not make me feel like I was bothering him or like he was trying to bring himself into the problem because thats usually why I don't talk about things to people, I don't like being a bother or a downer. <br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgnDqjj3yPM3EPT3esI415bseCy_AVM6YYpki9-FCAE97pzfrsyDcsPXlnoxUXB-IicHZPuBF5KVlAJ3Suw2vWgpcskou4fSX4Sigz_DsZHoBBh6VPcbRbgct7bVysyqDxfM7He1frLfw0/s1600/tonight.jpg" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5640646375985382930" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgnDqjj3yPM3EPT3esI415bseCy_AVM6YYpki9-FCAE97pzfrsyDcsPXlnoxUXB-IicHZPuBF5KVlAJ3Suw2vWgpcskou4fSX4Sigz_DsZHoBBh6VPcbRbgct7bVysyqDxfM7He1frLfw0/s400/tonight.jpg" style="height: 276px; width: 400px;" /></a>I just miss that guy. In case anyone is confused, I just miss my best <u>friend</u>. Its hard having him gone as well as a few of my closest friends too. Its definitely wierd being at this age where they all leave and so I can't wait to be at the age where they return.<br />
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I swear, the letters just don't come fast enough and 2 years sure can feel like forever some days but I know its for the best. AND we can still be there for eachother through those slow but great letters. <br />
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Until Then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-5721341205565243732011-12-04T22:51:00.001-08:002011-12-04T23:08:44.020-08:00Nowhere.So, Saturday was rough. I never thought work would be the best part of my day. Well you know when they say that if you bottle everything in eventually you'll hit the wall where you've had enough? I have kinda hit that wall lately.<br />
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Without getting into any details, the fights with a certain individual were escalated and I ended up grabbing my purse with work clothes and walked out. Walking has always been something I turn to, to calm down. It was so hard to be in that situation though because I honestly felt like I had nowhere to go, nowhere to run, nowhere to calm down...I was alone and had not a clue what to do.<br />
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Besides the fight, that's what hit me the most, I had nowhere to go and I didn't want to go back to where I had been. I so desperately want out. I wish more than anything that I was out on my own. Well, through all of this, I have seen the Lord's hand in my life. He has blessed me through some pretty hard times. At that moment when I was walking and confused with nowhere to go, I just prayed and prayed for comfort, a sound mind, and a forgiving heart. He helps me at the most trying times. He helps me to not feel completely alone or afraid, when I feel like I don't have anyone to turn to here. <br />
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Well until I am out of here, I am just going to figure out where I can turn to and where I can go when I need time to get away.<br />
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Until Then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-53258322148222210922011-11-28T10:59:00.001-08:002011-11-28T11:17:30.614-08:00Thanksgiving.<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Well, I liked the idea of posting at least one thing each day to be thankful for on Facebook and so I did that this year. (:</span></span></span><br />
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">This was my day-to-day list:</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";">Day 1: I'm thankful for my family. I don't know what I would do without them, I
would do ANYthing for them, and I'm glad I get to be with them for eternity.
Love you guys. </span></span><span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">♥</span></span><span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div>
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2: I'm thankful for my friends! From new friends to my best friends. (: I'm
thankful that I am so blessed to have such amazing people in my life to help
when they need it, to love, and to share wonderful memories with. I hope I've
been a great friend to all of you guys as well. I'm thankful for friendship. </span></span><span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">♥<o:p></o:p></span></span></span><br />
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3: I am thankful for the sun, for summer, for 90 degree heat, etc. BECAUSE if
it was cold and rainy like this all the time...I would surely die. haha I need
the sun.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";">Day
4: I am thankful that I have finally been hired somewhere! It’s been a long
wait. So, I can't believe in just a short time I will be working. AND this
means I can save money for school and get a phone. :D<o:p></o:p></span></span></span><br />
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Day
5: I am thankful for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I'm
grateful for being brought up in the gospel and to have a strong testimony. I
know the church is true, I know the Lord is always with me, and I know I am a
stronger person being a Latter-day Saint. (:<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";">Day
6: I am thankful for laughter. I wouldn't be able to make it through life
without it. (:<o:p></o:p></span></span></span><br />
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7: I am SO thankful for letters that bridge the gap between me and some of my
best friends. </span></span><span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">♥</span></span><span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"> Even in hard times, there is always
something to be thankful for.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";">Day
8: I am thankful for music. (: I love the way music gives you chills because
its so good, the way music calms you, when you relate to a song, when every time
a good song comes on and you say "I LOVE THIS SONG!" haha and songs
that have lyrics exactly like the words you so desperately want to say out loud.
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9: I am thankful for photos, especially one like this one. At the time, it may
be annoying to keep taking pictures BUT I have never regretted taking too many.
They hold so many wonderful memories and people I would never ever want to
forget. </span></span><span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">♥<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";">Day
10, Veterans Day: I am thankful for our service men and women! How blessed we
are to live in this great land with the freedom we have...freedom that we have
because people have fought for it. Thank you to those who have served, are
serving, and who will serve. My prayers will always be with you. </span></span><span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">♥<o:p></o:p></span></span></span><br />
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11: I am thankful for a blog. (: Not just a blog, but for writing in general.
Being able to write well has been a blessing in my life.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div>
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12: I am thankful for prayer. I'm truly thankful for the power of it and how it
lifts my spirit when life just brings me down.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span><br />
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13: I am thankful for all the wonderful people that support me in all that I
do! Thanks everyone. (:<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div>
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14: I am thankful for my new shoes! :D haha I love them.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span><br />
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15: I am thankful for band-aids!<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";">Day 16: I am thankful for grilled cheese
sandwiches. :D Well food in general. Haha<o:p></o:p></span></span></span><br />
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17: I am thankful for...PASSING my driving test!! SO excited to finally have my
license. :D</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="messagebody"><span lang="EN" style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;">Day 18: I am thankful for the
outdoors. Nothing better than an open dirt road, a peaceful lake for fishing,
the sound of the ocean and warmth of the sand, the breathtaking view after a
long hike, clear blue skies, the change of colors in the leaves... (:</span></span><span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div>
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<span class="messagebody"><span lang="EN" style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;">Day 19: I'm thankful for being able
to chill with good friends after a long day at work. (: </span></span></span><br />
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<span class="messagebody"><span lang="EN" style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Day 20: I am
thankful for SLEEP. haha</span></span></span><br />
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<span class="messagebody"><span lang="EN" style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;"></span></span><span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I stopped at Day 20 (obviously. haha) So, here is the rest.</span></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Day 21: I am thankful for the knowledge of the life here after, The Plan of Salvation. It brings me peace knowing I will someday see each person I have lost in this life and my beautiful animals.</span></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Day 22: I am thankful for my home. Its surely a blessing to have a roof over my head and a place to feel safe. </span></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Day 23: I am thankful for Facebook. haha For many reasons other than something to pass the time. </span></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Day 24: I am thankful for showers. :D </span></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Day 25: I am thankful for the Christmas Season coming up!! I'm especially thankful for the music and service that comes along with it. <span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">♥<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Day 26: I am thankful for my new calling in Primary.</span></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span class="messagebody"><span style="font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";"><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Day 27: I am, specifically, thankful for the BEACH. </span></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Day 28: I am thankful for heart felt conversations. Conversations that are worth remembering, that help situations, that heal, and that make everything better... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Day 29: I am thankful for my family I don't always see. My Grandparents are my heros, I look up to my Uncles even if they aren't doing things I would do...I respect them completely, for my younger cousins for stealing my heart everytime I visit, and for the family I won't see again until after this life.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Day 30: I am thankful for trials. Through the trials I have become stronger and through the struggles I've really learned to appreciate everything more. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">There is so much to be thankful for and I have learned that even more this month. I am truly thankful for everything in my life from the good times to the bad. From the easiest of times to the most challenging. Life is a beautiful struggle and everyday is a new day to see what there is to be thankful for. Never lose sight of that. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Until Then.</span>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-62251755617696716692011-11-20T00:40:00.001-08:002011-11-20T00:58:29.646-08:00Yours.Okay, so I'm just trying to gather my thoughts so this post will make some sense. I apologize ahead of time if I just ramble on. haha <br />
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SO! Some exciting news, I am now a licensed driver as of November 18th. (: Although I do not have a car of my own its nice having that and feeling like I've accomplished a little more this year. Also, work is going good! I really enjoy it...even when it is boring I feel productive and its nice.<br />
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Now...I shall ramble. haha So the feeling of letting go has just been something I've been thinking about for some time now. Especially, the letting go of someone. That someone could be a friend, someone you love but doesn't love you, a past love, and so on. But you know what is possibly harder than actually letting go yourself? Seeing someone ELSE struggling to let someone go. Seeing them have a battle within themselves about whether or not to let someone go even when that someone has hurt them over and over again. I think that is the hardest thing and I will tell you why. <br />
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It is harder because letting go of those people in your life or realizing those people are not coming back is such a personal thing. You cannot help someone with that trial. You can give them advice, your opinion, whatever but its all up to them. I know this because I've been there. So I know how it feels and I know how other people try to help. <br />
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Letting go is just one of the hardest trials. Its emotional, its difficult, its personal, and its deep. An old saying goes, "if you let someone go and they don't return to you...they were never yours. If you let them go and they come BACK, they have always been yours and will always be yours." I've always heard that but never really quite believed it and now...I know it to be true.<br />
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So always keep your faith in someone else alive BUT also know just when to let go and when you let go, be sure of it but don't doubt yourself. Let go with all your might and heart. Just remember that old saying and you'll be just fine. We are definitely all in this together. <br />
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Until Then.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4299639422737856675.post-35657671206413292482011-11-16T21:49:00.001-08:002011-11-16T21:54:13.383-08:00Work.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Just a short post! Man, I can't believe I am officially working now! It is so exciting. I'm just overwhelmed by the amount of support I have received throughout my job search and now as I have a job. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So work today went well! It was my first day. (: I did some training, then shadowed someone being a cashier, and THEN opened my own lane and did it myself. This is proving to be a good first job for me. I get to interact with people, it goes by fairly quickly too, and its just good. It is hard sometimes being a cashier, there is so many things to remember and so many people to keep happy! haha But it'll all go well, I just know it. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Prayers are answered ladies and gentlemen. It doesn't always feel like it and sometimes we feel so lost and alone BUT it just takes time. Everything works out when it is supposed to. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Until Then.</span>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15095545426621011262noreply@blogger.com0